Priorities

On the bus on the way to an ordinary dinner at one of the school canteens, CEFT said there are so many events that he could go to in the following weekends: a tennis game in the coming weekend and two separate birthday parties in the two succeeding weekends after that.

I tried to suppress a laugh in my head but it eventually showed on my face. He added that life would be so boring if life were just be studying and going home, like zombies. But that was not why I laughed. I laughed because he considered them as events. I only later realized the folly of my laugh: I also sometimes consider time with friends as events.

Our world forces us to compartmentalize activities in our lives. Life becomes not just a stream of consciousness but instead a cascade of events.

Life requires us to have priorities: all the other stuff need to revolve around your #1 priority. Maybe that is why I'm still here; I've considered my studying as a peripheral activity to everything else and not made it my #1 priority. While some people consider meeting up with friends as a decorative piece, I considered studying as one.

My life is worth living, I believe. But the kind of life I want to live just doesn't fit what others want it to be.