Temper

Most people, I believe, are afraid of confrontations. I, myself, am to a certain degree very confrontative but still afraid of it a lot of times.

Just the other night, during a party of some sort, I shouted because I got angry because of what some people said and people just ignored me. They continued talking to me like nothing happened. One even asked me to help him with something for the event which I gladly obliged to. Or I'm probably reading too much into it and they probably just did not hear me or thought I was just joking.

And therein lies what I am scared of about myself. I can be this very nice person in one moment and in a snap turn into a monster and then back again to the sweet young thing. Haha. I wish I could be more in control of my temper.

I can still remember one time in Primary 3 when my teacher got angry at my class and individually told us what was wrong with us. I was the last one she talked about and only with me did she pause for a while. She couldn't think of anything bad to say about me. She then said that I might be nice but I could (speculative) just be boiling inside (in Tagalog: nasa loob ang kulo). It only took a few weeks before her statement was proven.